I've been assessed as Autistic.
It's not a problem.
Nor is it likely what you think it is.
It's not like an illness, or a disease, or a bad relationship or anything that we might pick up on the this human journey of ours.
It is completely and indivisibly me
And always has been
Always will be
It's why I do what I do
It's why I don't do what I don't do
It's why I don't do what I should do
It's why I do what I shouldn't do
It's not laziness
Nor stupidity
Nor confusion
Nor ignorance
I have no control over it
I cannot excorcise it
Or have it surgically removed
Without removing myself
Which is what so many of us do
Remove themselves from this world
But not me
I have love
and sounds
and art
and a brain that won't shut up
or give up
or give up
however many times I stumble with my words
or fail at this or that simple task.
Because now, I can wake up as the same person I was the day before.
And I haven't done that in a very long time.